I'm not an Addict, baby that's the lie....

It's like watching and listening to my favorite song by K Choice "I'm not an addict". For the last 6months I've watched as he sleeps all day and disappears at odd times of night. Talks on the phone while on typing like a crazed secretary on facebook and looks the part of a filthy young bum. I've sadly learned to accept that my 17 year old little brother is a drug addict on the verge of becoming a human waste dump.

After many talks with him to change his life, go back to school, looking towards the future, and too many close encounters with the law. I literally get sick of the site of the person that I once carried to the babysitter while walking to highschool. My faith is lost and the thoughts of cause & effect and postive vs negative have been destroyed. The lone path of self-destruction that he now walks is made. From this day forth is merely another junkie to me that I'll see in my eyes to report to the police. I no longer know this person.






"Not An Addict"

Breathe it in and breathe it out
And pass it on, it's almost out
We're so creative, so much more
We're high above but on the floor

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side

The deeper you stick it in your vein
The deeper the thoughts, there's no more pain
I'm in heaven, I'm a god
I'm everywhere, I feel so hot

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)

It's over now, I'm cold, alone
I'm just a person on my own
Nothing means a thing to me
(Nothing means a thing to me)

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)

Free me, leave me
Watch me as I'm going down
Free me, see me
Look at me, I'm falling and I'm falling.

It is not a habit, it is cool I feel alive I feel...
It is not a habit, it is cool I feel alive

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)
I'm not an addict...